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Ask me anything  

Blushed.

As I was walking into my shift at Fossello’s yesterday, I was stopped by a beautiful mother with her hand reached out eager to shake mine.  ” I have to introduce myself, I am a biig follower of your work, I get all my inspiration from you!! “.  My first reaction was to blush, say "ya right" & then i embraced what she was saying.  I know what it is like to BE that person meeting my inspiration face to face.  Its a neat feeling, you have SO many questions to ask, so much to say in so little time!  Needless to say, I was VERY flattered & SO blessed to have run into such a beautiful person.  She lit up my ENTIRE day & gave me that little boost in confidence one needs from time to time!  

KS - I hope to get an e-mail from you soon & maybe we can plan a coffee date & chat our hearts out about photography!  

I am already excited xo 

— 2 years ago with 1 note
#cocophotography  #fossellos  #photography 
Annnnnd my amazing island bestie Jenilee xo

Annnnnd my amazing island bestie Jenilee xo

— 2 years ago
Workin on this too !

Workin on this too !

— 2 years ago
Workin on it !

Workin on it !

— 2 years ago
Wed. 12:33 

..at my wits end!
i’m tired..
tired of feeling like i am a teenager, livin at her moms house, with a baby & her boyfriend.


tired of feeling bullied.
& tired of this constant thought — ” I could be there doing this..”  ” We could have been there doing that…” ” I could have had this opportunity here…”  ”It wouldn’t be this way if it was like this..”
i realize these are all the negatives around me & i preach about focusing on the positives but today i’m just done.  
done .  done .  done .

i want to be the wife & mother i am meant to be
i want to have the freedom in my own home that of which i’ve crafted so carefully
i want my daughter to live every day to its fullest with her mama & her papa
i want to explore, learn, touch, & create
i want to be with my cousin alicia who is busy working at home with a 6 month old while being pregnant
i want to be ME

i am tired of feeling taken advantage of
i won’t be any more

i am sad a lot while being on the coast
i won’t be any more

i am tired of people making me feel like i am NOT good enough
i’m tired of wondering why some haven’t givin me the closure i deserve
i’m tired of wondering why my old friends haven’t stepped up and said ” Its ok court, its all over now.  lets move forward & get this where it needs to be “
i thought of you as my FRIENDS as my role models as my company as my inspiration.  today i see it as i’m no longer ” in ” & i cannot..i CANNOT get over this
it is obvious you do not care about me  & i miss so terribly being apart of all of your lives. 


i’m choosing to stop feeling sorry for myself & be great full for what is in front of me.
although it is hard.
it must be done.
i was strong while in the city but a year a go this month i lost one of my best friends & i haven’t been able to recover…as i thought i had

i am terrified that when i do chose to move back - this will all come to haunt me as it has this time.

words from my sister are always, positive, encouraging, & meaningful,
understanding & respectful.
she knows where i’m coming from
she sees what i’ve dealt with
she understands how i’m feeling
she seems to be the only one

she tells me i deserve answers
i believe she is right



 

— 2 years ago with 1 note

I was SO very excited to be apart of this day.  Honoured that Kristina would even have ME tag along this engagement session of hers!  Its a big deal because engagement sessions are when photographers get to know their clients.  You get to see how they work as a couple together, what works for them & what doesn’t.  How they interact..Its kind of an inside view of what the wedding day could be like!   I was in my GLORY because Kristina of Kristina Belkina Photography is like my Hero..Inspiration…Idol…I’m her biggest fan!  & you know what its like when you get to finally meet somebody you’ve been wanting to meet forever? Then you get to WORK with them?  Holy - I tell you I was so excited.    
In this album you’ll see shots of Kristina’s beautiful couple Rachel + Sam & you’ll also see some shots of Kristina working with them.  Some shots you’ll see just the tip of Kristina’s lens & I loved that!  It was her session & I got to play!  
I was so flattered when Kristina said to me ” Rachel + Sam would like you to be their second shooter at their wedding in August “.  Thank you!   I am already super excited about this !

I was SO very excited to be apart of this day.  Honoured that Kristina would even have ME tag along this engagement session of hers!  Its a big deal because engagement sessions are when photographers get to know their clients.  You get to see how they work as a couple together, what works for them & what doesn’t.  How they interact..Its kind of an inside view of what the wedding day could be like!   I was in my GLORY because Kristina of Kristina Belkina Photography is like my Hero..Inspiration…Idol…I’m her biggest fan!  & you know what its like when you get to finally meet somebody you’ve been wanting to meet forever? Then you get to WORK with them?  Holy - I tell you I was so excited.    

In this album you’ll see shots of Kristina’s beautiful couple Rachel + Sam & you’ll also see some shots of Kristina working with them.  Some shots you’ll see just the tip of Kristina’s lens & I loved that!  It was her session & I got to play!  

I was so flattered when Kristina said to me ” Rachel + Sam would like you to be their second shooter at their wedding in August “.  Thank you!   I am already super excited about this !

— 2 years ago with 2 notes

i hate days like today when i’m feeling so blue.

— 2 years ago
..because I love hello kitty!

..because I love hello kitty!

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— 2 years ago with 3927 notes
#hello kitty 
Yeah!No doubt.  & the struggle continues. 

Yeah!
No doubt.  
& the struggle continues. 

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— 2 years ago with 3942 notes
workisnotajob:

Ignore at your own risk..

workisnotajob:

Ignore at your own risk..

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— 2 years ago with 583 notes